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[personal profile] yoyoangel asked "Could you tell us something about where you're at with religion, these days, in terms of practice and/or beliefs?"

So this is actually quite difficult, because I'm a practicing catholic in the Church of England, and I don't really believe in God. Which is to say, that although I have a gut feeling that something Godlike probably exists, if I think about it hard and look at the evidence, it seems much more likely that we've evolved to have that gut feeling for various reasons that have nothing to do with it actually being true, and that in fact, it probably isn't.

However, (1) knowing that doesn't make the feeling go away, and (2) the last decade or so has demonstrated very clearly to me that participating in regular worship and being part of a church community makes me much happier and mentally healthier and kinder than when I'm not. So I just don't think too hard about it.

I'm a Christian specifically partly because it's what I grew up with, but mostly because the Easter Story, the sacrifice of everything, and the love of all humanity no matter how flawed we are is something that is beautiful and magical whether it is true or not. I'm catholic specifically because it's the liturgy I grew up with, and all the emotional responses I have to the Easter Story are hotkeyed to that liturgy. I'm anglo-catholic because "we believe in one, holy, catholic, and apostolic church" and that church is Little St Mary's in Cambridge. More seriously though - LSM was a wonderful place for me, and where I first realised how much happier I was being part of a church community, but also, until recently the Roman church has been rather hostile to us queers, and although that can certainly be found in the CoE* it's also much easier to find catholic communities who are actively welcoming.

I worship at St John the Evangelist, Brownswood Park, which is actually my parish church. When we last moved I was expecting to go to another church nearby which I used to attend last time we lived near Finsbury Park, but it's about half an hour away, so I figured I'd try the parish church first, and it turned out to be just my sort of place liturgically, as well as being closer, having an extremely charming** priest, and not being Backwards in Bigotry***.

I'm on the serving team, which means that most of the time when I'm attending Mass I'm in the sacristy party - either thurifer (that's swinging the smoking handbag with incense in), or crucifer (carrying the cross during the procession in and out, and helping the priest prepare the bread and wine which will become the body and blood of Christ). This actually helps a lot with the not-actually-believing stuff, because it means that I'm concentrating sufficently hard on what happens next in the liturgy that I don't get bogged down in too much "but what if this is all meaningless".



*I remain utterly devastated that I still can't get married - please tread with extreme care if you want to discuss this
**although younger than me, which I find a bit terrifying
***Forward in Faith, the organisation opposed to the ordination of women, which is made up of an uneasy alliance of evangelical biblical literalists who think that women should be silent because that's what Paul said (and also that homosexualists should burn in hell), and high church Anglo-Catholics who are mostly older gay men who think that women have cooties and should be kept away from their playhouse.
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[livejournal.com profile] bunnypip asked for "a post about the hows and whys and wherefores of having fabulous nails", and since I've just had my nails & cocktails party this weekend, now seems a good time for it.

I used to wear nail polish quite a lot whilst I was living in Cambridge and going to goth clubs regularly, but then fell out of the habit until my recent stint in Oxford, where there was once again a club I could go to and be able to get home without wrestling with night buses. At first is was just a single basic colour - usually dark jewel colours or metallics. Then one time when I was buying nail polishes I noticed some nail stickers that were quite cool, and a little while after that I tried looking for some specific stickers online, realised just how many interesting nail art supplies and gadgets there were to be had, and kind of fell down the rabbit hole.

One of the things I really like about it is that although I'm not at all artistic, and generally can't do the complex hand-painted designs especially well, there's loads and loads of other techniques and designs that don't require much skill once I've had a bit of practice, but are interesting enough that strangers compliment them fairly frequently. I did different things for each nail at the party - initially because I was demonstrating techniques, and then after that because it would be silly to have one hand all different, and one hand all the same.

pictures and notes below the cut )

I really enjoy the process of doing my nails, especially when a new technique really comes together well, and what's more, I get a little burst of joy every time I look at them for days. It may be horribly vain, but it still makes me happy.
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[livejournal.com profile] emperor asked "Where do you see yourself professionally in 5ish years?" and [personal profile] highlyeccentric asked "What is your professional field?", which is related enough that I'll answer them together.

What I mostly do is a mixture of data wrangling and project management, which I've done in a variety of sectors - initially in telecommunications, then at a hedge fund, and for the last few years in higher education. For a little over a year I've been doing it on a self-employed consultancy basis, first at Oxford University, and now at Kingston. I find that this suits me quite well, as I tend to get bored fairly easily, and usually find that my interest in a job starts to dwindle around 6-12 months in no matter how interesting the content actually is. Working as a consultant means that I can effectively change jobs that frequently without looking like a flake who can't stick to anything.

So that's where I am now. I got both of the current contracts through an agency, and I'll probably rely on them to find me a few more whilst I build up contacts and fill out a few last gaps in my CV. I'm aiming to gradually shift the focus of the work I do from being mostly data with a bit of management to mostly management with a bit of data, and I've actually just had a heads up about a possible new contract after the Kingston one ends which would be a bit of a move in that direction. I'm almost certain to stay within the HE sector for the next few years, as by now I've picked up quite a lot of sector-specific expertise, but once I've had a couple of senior management roles in HE then I'll probably try to broaden my horizons a bit. I think that once I've got a really solid set of transferable skills under my belt it'll be easier to, well, transfer them, and what I really want to do is have access to enough work in London to keep me here most of the time.

I think that five years from now I'll probably be around the point of "just about have enough senior experience to start looking at other sectors". Where I'll be ten years from now is a bit more uncertain. I might just keep doing interim management contracts on a mostly full time basis and hopefully be able to retire quite early, or I might deliberately take gaps as long as I can afford and enjoy rather more leisure time. If I end up getting more interest than I can supply I might even start to employ other people and end up running a small management consultancy, but time will very much tell on that. It's hard to know what my priorities will be by then.

Snippets

Dec. 7th, 2014 06:22 pm
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Okay, the plan was a prompted post at least once every three days in December, so if the first was today I'd better pick up the pace if I'm going to manage on average. I've still got a few slots for prompts left though, if anyone wants to add something?

Current requests:
Liv: Confidence
emperor: Where do you see yourself professionally in 5ish years
nou: making and maintaining friendships
yoyoangel: Religious practice and beliefs
bunnypip: fabulous nails

Cheeky 2nd requests which I'll do if I have time:
emperor: Highlights of 2014
bunnypip: Advent

  • Thanks for all the advice on running shoes - I got some new ones yesterday, and they definitely help. I remain uneaten by zombies. Hoorah.

  • I'm hosting a Nails & Cocktails party next weekend - I invited people on the book of face, but if you're not on there and are interested let me know and I'll give you the details (basically, we drink delicious cocktails and paint each others' nails - what's not to love?)

  • I'm going through a phase of missing Cambridge in general and LSM in particular. I visited last weekend and it was absolutely wonderful but now I'm a bit sad that I don't live there any more (although London and St John's are wonderful too!)

  • Work is ridiculously busy at the moment, but it should calm down by next week, which I am looking forward to, and the Christmas break a couple of weeks later even more.

  • Ramesh & I are going to stay in a little cottage in Devon for a few days. This will be the first time we've been away together just the two of us since we went to Prague on our 3rd date (nearly six years ago, for those of you who've not been counting)
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    [personal profile] liv asked:
    "Confidence. You always seem to be really confident, you have a job that requires you to convince clients you're really good at what you do, and you have such a great sense of style, and you throw yourself into acting and readthroughs with gusto. Do you actually feel really confident about putting yourself out there like that, or are you more faking it? In either case, how do you do it?"

    So my first reaction on reading this was to think "Well, I am really good at my job, and I'm pretty good at acting these days, so it's quite easy to be confident about them". And then I realised what I'd just thought and laughed at myself a bit, but I think it fairly clearly answers the first part of the question, that I do actually feel really confident at least about some things. So how do I do it? Well, it's not really something I do conciously at all, but I can say something about how it came about...

    When I was younger I had very little confidence, especially after my depression started kicking in at around eleven or twelve. I spent my early teens holing myself up in my room, earnestly believing that my only good quality was my academic ability. About the time I moved from school to sixth-form college I started to find friends who actually appeared to like me, and that did start to break into the well of self-loathing that I'd built up, but unfortunately by that time it was deep and dark enough that it wasn't going to disappear easily. I did what I think maybe a lot of people who are just stepping out of that pit do and swung far too far in the opposite direction, pulling on armour of apparent arrogance which wasn't really very nice, although at the time it probably was better than the alternatives.

    This continued through my late teens and early 20s, too-ing and fro-ing as I lost and gained ground in my battle with the underlying depression. And then 2003 happened. 2003 was the year that everything in my life went to hell in a handbasket - one of my primary partners got sent to prison, I came within a hair's breath of failing my degree, my mother had a stroke, [personal profile] denny had his bike accident, and I was sharing a house with a couple who'd just broken up and caught in the middle of all that drama. It was... it was not a good year. And yet I survived. I even managed to come off anti-depressants that year. And as the New Year came around I realised that if I could survive that, there were very few things the world could throw at me that could break me. And ever since then I've had a very strong sense that ultimately everything will be okay.

    And I think that that deep down sense is what makes it possible for me to be genuinely confident about most things. It's not necessarily that I think I'm awesome at everything, but because I trust that everything will be alright, it's very easy to try, and to take the evidence of how well I do at face value. There are things that I'm not confident about - socialising in large groups, meeting new people, especially meeting new people I might want to date - but I think that's mostly because I haven't done them much lately, and it would probably come back if I threw myself into it.

    Sadly this isn't terribly useful for someone else wanting to improve their confidence. On the whole, suffer from crippling depression for about a decade, then just as you're recovering have the universe throw as much appalling crap at you as it possibly can, isn't a strategy I'd recommend. But it worked for me.
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    I went running this morning! And Monday! And Saturday! Okay, that's not very many times yet, but it's twice more than I usually manage when I decide that I'm going to take up running, so my hopes are up. This morning I did the first episode of Zombies! Run!, which was pretty good fun, and I think will make it easier to keep it going. I've also ordered some gloves and warmer running gear, as it's been bloody cold when I first get started, and it's probably going to get a fair bit colder before the spring.

    I think I could probably also do with getting some new trainers, as the ones I have now are about seven years old, and were pretty cheap and cheerful back then, but that strikes me as something that requires a bit more thought than gloves and leggings. People who run - any pointers on where I should get them, anything I should look out for, and how much should I be expecting to spend? FWIW, I expect to be running about 2-3 times/week, and usually no more than about 5km. Maybe with the occasional 10k run on weekends once I'm a lot fitter than I am now.

    Also, in between vignettes about zombies I have music playing, and am really really bad/lazy about picking songs, so if anyone has any good exercise Spotify playlists to share/recommend, that would be fab.
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    I just got round to setting up a DW feed for A Thing of Things, which is written by Ozy Frantz, who I first encountered as the partner of Scott Alexander, and who basically has all of his good points, but also (what I see as) a rather more balanced approach to social justice stuff. I suggest you all add them yesterday.
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    So that thing where people commit to posting on prompts every day in December. I think the chances of me actually managing it are laughably small, but I would like to try for posting approximately every third day. I'll definitely do the first ten prompts I get; if I get more then I'll do my best, but no promises.
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    Yesterday evening I took a couple of hours out from my frantic World of Warcraft playing (a new expansion was just released, and inevitably it's eating my life and will continue doing so for the next couple of weeks) to go and see The Imitation Game, the new biopic about Alan Turing.

    I know a lot of people don't much like Bandersnatch, but I'm definitely in the 'I totally would' camp. I was a bit worried based on the trailers though that the character would just be played as Sherlock Mark II, but it turns out that they'd just chosen the 2 minutes of most Sherlockey footage, and as it turned out his acting was nuanced and excellent.

    It was pretty unremittingly bleak though, and even the positive moments were underscored by the sickening knowledge of how it was going to end, so only go if you're feeling fairly robust. Well worth it if you feel up to it though.
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    I had an excellent dinner with [livejournal.com profile] obandsoller last night at Fera, Simon Rogan's restaurant at Claridges.

    And it was very good, no doubt about it. Lots of interesting flavours and textures, everything cooked extremely well, generally good wine pairings, attentive yet unobtrusive service, innovative cocktails. And yet, and yet...

    I came away feeling slightly underawed. Each of us had one course which was merely good rather than very good, but out of seven, plus four amuse bouche, that seems like a pretty good hit rate. But it wasn't that exactly, so much as that I think I might have tasting-menued myself out, at least for the time being. Which is sad, but then I'm sure there are plenty of other kinds of exciting food in the world, and most of them probably don't cost the same as a short holiday, so I think I shall be looking at other styles for a little while.

    I'm sure I'll come back to it eventually mind, and by then, it might even be possible for mere humans to get a table at the Chiltern Firehouse...

    Sleeeeeeep

    Oct. 31st, 2014 12:38 pm
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    I'm really bad at going to bed at a sensible time. I tell myself that I need to be in bed by 11.30, and with the lights out and trying to sleep by midnight, but as that time rolls around there's always an urgent need to play just one more level of my game, or read just one more chapter of my book. Last night was particularly bad, and I didn't make it to bed until nearly five, which when I'm getting up at sevenish is not something my body can cope with now I'm no longer quite so young as I once was. Usually it's better than that, but one-thirty or two is not uncommon, and I'm starting to resent being tired all the time.

    Anyone else struggle with this, and if so, any suggestions more useful than "apply more willpower"?

    Singing

    Oct. 9th, 2014 10:05 am
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    Eee! I started having singing lessons again this week. I gained so much confidence from the first lot, and now that I'm back in both London and employment I'm really excited to be starting them again.

    I'm not really sure what sort of repertoire I want to work on. I'm going to start working towards an exam soonish, (Grade 4, at CN's suggestion, which strikes me as a bit scarily high to be starting at, but I'm sure they know best) so to some extent it'll be guided by the syllabus, but I probably want to do other things as well. People who sing - any suggestions of fun not-too-hard baritone/bass stuff I might want to have a look at?

    Woot!

    Sep. 30th, 2014 12:49 pm
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    I've just agreed with my head of department that I can work from home one day a week. The commute (90 minutes each way) is really the only downside to my current contract, so hoorah for sensible managers :)
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    And in the spirit of posting more quick things, today's Captain Awkward was particularly good, I thought. (Content note for discussion of severe depression and attempted suicide.) The suggestion of looking for ways to spend time looking after a depressed person without making it about the depression especially.
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    So I've got myself an Ello account - same username as this. I've also got some invites if anyone wants one. Like many, I'm a little sceptical that it'll actually take off and lure people away from facebook, but we'll see. It has been pointed out by a few people that Dreamwidth actually has quite a lot of the benefits over facebook that Ello claims (no adds, no selling your data), as well as rather more features, and there's been various lamenting over the fact that hardly anyone still posts here/on livejournal, and I'm as guilty of that as the next person, so I might start making an effort to post a bit more.

    I think part of what puts me off is that on here I feel the need to craft posts carefully, and say deep and meaningful things, but actually, just posting some life updates wouldn't go amiss. Something I've become very much aware of over the last few years is how infrequently I see the people I don't live with compared to when I lived in Cambridge, or even shortly after I moved to London, when I was going out a lot more. I've realised that just like my mother I don't tend to enjoy large gatherings of people, especially if I'm not hosting, so parties aren't really a thing I do anymore. Even my closest friends I only manage to see once every month or two if they live in London, and less if they're further away. It is, I think, a very different sort of closeness, built on years and trust rather than the passionate intensity of my youth (oh dear lord I sound ancient). But yes, that does seem to mean that I don't have nearly as much sense of what's going on in other people's day to day lives, nor share nearly as much of my own.
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    We like this place. They have a no booking policy, which meant we had to go to a mediocre cocktail bar whilst waiting for a table to become free, but whilst the cocktails were fine, the company was superlative, so I recommend you all go there with someone as fabulous as [livejournal.com profile] borusa

    Once we got our table they quickly brought us some very nice bread, and there was oil on the table, so that worked quite well. We both had fish starters - Robert had the squid and chorizo, and I had the clams with chilli and vermicelli. Mine was very good, but Robert's was excellent. We paired them with a Riesling which was perhaps a little too spicy for either dish, but was pleasant enough.

    For our main course we shared the duck with, oh, all the things. There were potatoes and beatroot and leaves and all the other things. The thing that stood out most was the the banana shallots, which it took a while to figure out what they were, but they were really really good even without knowing what they were. The breast meat was very good - it had taken on lots and lots of herbal flavours, and was cooked juuuust right. I felt that the leg meat on the duck could have been a bit more interesting in both taste and texture., and that a jus on the side would have pushed this course from very good indeed to outstanding.

    For pudding Robert had a cheesecake which he didn't give me a taste of, and I had a chocolate beetroot cake which was really very good indeed (and he had one more taste of my cake than he cares to admit. So there.)

    Three courses, a bottle and a half of wine, and service came in at about £125 for two. I'm fairly sure we'll be going back.
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    We started with a drink at Purl, one of the forerunners in the trend for speakeasy style cocktail bars in London. The atmosphere was great, and I enjoyed the two-seater swing chair that we had instead of a table, but the drinks, whilst imaginative in style, weren't nearly as well balanced as some that I've enjoyed elsewhere. The honey smoke in my Mr Hyde's Fixer Upper (their signature drink) was a delicious and interesting touch, but the Zapaca rum that formed the base was somewhat overpowered, and would be better replaced with something darker, with more molasses.

    But on to the meal... Dinings is a Japanese tapas restaurant. Yeah, it sounded a bit odd to me too, but I love Japanese food, and I love trying unusual combinations, so it seemed well worth a try. It was.

    Many different dishes, and a greatly contrasting range of flavours and textures. The tar-tar chips are a fun little amuse bouche - that was my first time trying wagyu beef, and oh my word the intensity of the meaty oomph was something else. The seabass carpaccio was explosively good - crunch of salsa against melt-in-the-mouth fish against chewiness of the shaved truffle, sharp sharp tang of ponzu against rich umamish earthiness (truffle again) in the dressing. This was one of those dishes that made me almost whimper with pleasure. Wagyu beef char-sui buns, which unlike most char-sui buns actually had the right ratio of meat to bun, and the latter was far more flavoursome and interestingly textured than the cotton wool you usually encounter. There's this wonderful moment biting into it when the juices from the meat begin to escape onto your tongue; a glorious teaser for the pleasure to follow. There was more, and all of it delicious, but those were the real highlights.

    The service was friendly and knowledgeable, but there were a couple of times when we were left waiting for one thing or another for a bit longer than would be ideal (though this was acknowledged and apologised for, so I suspect they were just slightly understaffed).

    It wasn't cheap, coming in at a shade under £150/head, and unlike a lot of the meals I write about, a much greater proportion of that was on the food than on the drinks.
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    I'm just in from a rather fabulous meal with [livejournal.com profile] robert_jones at Dinner, Heston Blumenthal's restaurant in the Mandarin Oriental in Knightsbridge. The menu is a bit more down-to-earth than the Fat Duck, with only one option involving liquid nitrogen, and no scented sprays, gelees, or sound-effects at all. Unsurprisingly though, that still leaves quite a lot of scope for poncyness. The conceit of the restaurant is that all the dishes are based on or inspired by traditional English food, from about the 13th-19th century, although they were clearly rather more developed from the original recipes than some of the things I cooked for the Bardcamp Elizabethan Feast.

    We started with a glass of fizz - I had the house champagne, which was rich and buttery, and Robert had the sommelier's recommendation, which was much crisper and sharper, and as would pleasingly persist throughout the night, both of us slightly preferred our own choices. Sadly they don't publish the wine lists online, but I'm hoping that Robert will appear in the comments with a better memory of the details of these and later wines.

    For starters I had bone marrow with snails and a pickled vegetable salad, with a glass of Meursault. It was delicious and garlicky and warming, with a lovely sharp spicy contrast from the salad. The only flaw, if such it can be called, was that I would have liked another mouthful or three. The wine was a fantastic match to the marrow, and whilst it was less so against the salad, it would have been very difficult to find something to go well with both. Robert went for one of the few dishes that didn't tempt me - octopus in a smoked sea broth, which he paired with a Vouvray. As it turns out though, when it's done just right, octopus doesn't have that rubbery texture that I dislike, and I could have very happily polished off a whole plate of it myself. The broth was particularly fine, intense and savoury and fishy.

    For main courses I had duck with confit fennel and 'umbles, and Robert had spiced pigeon with ale and artichokes, and to drink we had a pinot noir from Burgundy. As we were ordering they checked that we were both happy for these to be served quite pink. We were of course, but it's a good job we both really were, as by "quite pink" they meant "dripping and bloody". The meat for both courses was surprisingly similar - they met about in the middle of how gamey I usually expect duck and pigeon to be. And they were really really good. In contrast to the starters, the portions here were really rather generous (I think I may just be too used to tasting menus, so the extent of the difference in size between the two courses was rather greater than expected). Also worthy of note was the mashed potato, which was super-smooth, rich, and buttery, with just the slightest hint of caramel.

    Puddings were brown bread ice-cream with salted butter caramel, and a glass of Madeira for Robert, and goat's milk cheesecake with smoked candied walnuts and poached pear, and a glass of sweet Riesling for me. Robert's was perfectly balanced - lots and lots of flavours that just worked together. Mine was a bit more unusual, with a lot of savoury notes coming from the smoked walnuts and the goat's cheese. It might not be for everyone, but I really love puddings which are barely puddings at all.

    An excellent meal throughout, without a single duff note in the food, and a lot of really sparkling ones. The wine was also superb, especially the red with the main course. The service was generally good, although perhaps a little over chatty. If we could average out the attentiveness between here and the Pollen Street Social, where we ate a few weeks ago then I think it would be just perfect.

    The bill came in at a slightly eye-watering £335/head including service, but about three-quarters of that was wine, and they have plenty of far more reasonably priced bottles.
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    I know, I completely fell over on Ginvent, sorry. I drank quite a few without taking notes, although I still have the last three left, so they may get reviews eventually.

    Right now though, I have another thing to write about. We're coming up to the end of our current year's tenancy in this house, and [livejournal.com profile] strongtrousers is thinking of getting a place by himself (just because living by oneself is a good thing to do at some point, not because he hates us [or so he says!?!]), and a five bedroom house between three of us is probably a bit excessive (and a bit expensive). So unless we can find a suitable housemate (and we'd be quite picky with people we already knew, and very very picky with people we didn't), we'll be moving soon.

    And we're looking quite seriously at the buying-instead-of-renting option, which is, as the entry title indicates, a bit scary. Also a bit exciting. We're still looking into the options as to whether we could finance buying the sort of place we'd want to live in, but it's looking distinctly possible, and we should find out more in the next week or so after talks with mortgage advisers and the various banks of mum and dad have happened.

    So, any advice for first time buyers? General or specific to London is good.

    Our main requirements are:
    • Good for commuting for Robert and Ramesh, which is ideally the Central or Northern Lines, although Piccadilly would be plausible (I'm likely to be contracting for the forseeable, so my commute will vary, and I'll just have to live with it if it sucks

    • At least three double bedrooms

    • A decent sized kitchen - we like entertaining, and have all the kitchen gadgets, so this is non-negotiable

    • Either two reception rooms, or one which is big enough to have both a dining room and a drawing room space

    • A bathroom with a good shower, and a separate loo

    • Enough space for quite a lot of wine and books

    Other things we would like if possible

    Any thoughts you have about how achievable our requirements are (our budget is likely to be in the region of £400k, maybe a bit more), where we should be looking, whether or not taking advantage of the help-to-buy scheme would be a good idea, or indeed morally tolerable, anything else we ought to be thinking about would be of interest.
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    Gin 13 is Dodd's Gin, the London Distillery Company. It's quite gentle on the nose, with something reminiscent of royal icing from a packet. Pour over ice it gets a bit more herbal, with basil and maybe a hint of parsley coming through. You pick these up on the palate as well, but it's quite harsh to sip, perhaps unsurprisingly at 49.9 abv. The tonic takes that edge off, but it also loses some of its herbiness. I think I'd like to try this shaken with some muddled basil, white sugar, and lemon juice.
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