State of the Sebastian

[wildeabandon]

I seem to be bearing up pretty well mental healthwise. The thing I seem to be most anxious about is that not being more anxious makes me callous and heartless, and I am, to be honest, not particularly worried about that, because I think that generally behaviour is what matters and I don't think I'm behaving callously. Physically my throat is still slightly tickly but not turning into a cough, my temperature is on the low end of normal, and I'm getting out for a run every other day or so. I am starting to feel a bit touch starved - the last time I had more than very brief physical contact with anyone was days ten days ago, and there's almost an ache under my skin. Only four days now till I'm back home with my husband...

I'm a little bit grumpy with my landlords up here. I asked whether they would support me contacting the local authority/suitable charities, to see whether whilst I'm away the space could be offered to vulnerable people who need to self-isolate and don't have anywhere to do so (including an offer to accept liability for any resulting damage), but they have declined. I'm not sure whether there's anything I can do to get them to change their minds - I suspect it wouldn't make for very good PR for them, but I don't know whether the likelihood that it would actually be meeting a need makes instigating that sort of conflict worthwhile.

I went out to the shops briefly today. I'll be returning to London with quite a lot more stuff than I came up with a fortnight ago, and plan to walk home from KX rather than getting the tube, so I needed to buy a big rucksack. It was pretty quiet, but less so than I expected. I was particularly surprised to see someone getting their eyebrows threaded, and someone else getting a manicure.

My aunt has cancelled her plans to meet up with my sister in Peterborough, which I'm relieved about. My sister was going to cancel anyway, but the fact that it came from Angela means, I hope, that she's taking it a bit more seriously. I am worried about the impact of isolation on her pyschological wellbeing though. The rest of the family have a WhatsApp chat which is unsurprisingly busy at the moment, but Angela is pretty technophobic. We'll all be making as much effort as we can to phone more and send cards and things, and I'm not sure what else we can do.

Comments

[ludy]

Glad you are managing and your throat isn't getting worse.
Gentle Good Thoughts for the rest of your isolation and getting home

[charlie]

M had to go to a shop on Saturday which involved being near Walthamstow centre - apparently the market was still on in full swing, and thriving fairly as well.