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It is distinctly comforting seeing more and more of my people getting vaccinated, and the return to something resembling normal feels increasingly in sight.
I went for my first run in a couple of months this morning, and I'm glad I did, but it's a bit depressing how much I've deconditioned. I ran about 6km at a very slow pace compared to what I'm used to, and it still felt like pretty hard work. I'm sure that if I can keep it up it'll come back fairly quickly though. I stopped mostly because I really wanted to get my sleep cycle in order and had been finding it extremely difficult. I decided that whilst doing so I was going to limit how much energy and willpower I was expending on other things, and I think that was the right call, as I have made real progress with the sleep thing, and now that that's starting to feel embedded I'm hopeful that picking up other good habits again will be easier, because I'll be doing it from a position of not being constantly short on sleep...
A couple of weekends ago I led the Lent study group, which was a bit nerve-wracking, but I think it went reasonably well. I did realise as it was going on that some of the links between the scripture readings and commentary and the discussion questions that followed might not have been as clear to other people as they were inside my head, but I think it still worked. Next time I do something similar I might try giving a trial run to someone, and getting some feedback before the live version.
I forgot to take my ADHD meds yesterday, which was foolish of me, and consequently had a day of being rather stupid and useless. It was a bit frustrating, but in some ways it's good to have the reminder of just how much difference they make to my life, and how astonishing it is that I managed to achieve as much as I did before I got my diagnosis (although it's not a completely fair comparison, as there's an aspect of withdrawal making it worse than just standard unmedicated me.)
I went for my first run in a couple of months this morning, and I'm glad I did, but it's a bit depressing how much I've deconditioned. I ran about 6km at a very slow pace compared to what I'm used to, and it still felt like pretty hard work. I'm sure that if I can keep it up it'll come back fairly quickly though. I stopped mostly because I really wanted to get my sleep cycle in order and had been finding it extremely difficult. I decided that whilst doing so I was going to limit how much energy and willpower I was expending on other things, and I think that was the right call, as I have made real progress with the sleep thing, and now that that's starting to feel embedded I'm hopeful that picking up other good habits again will be easier, because I'll be doing it from a position of not being constantly short on sleep...
A couple of weekends ago I led the Lent study group, which was a bit nerve-wracking, but I think it went reasonably well. I did realise as it was going on that some of the links between the scripture readings and commentary and the discussion questions that followed might not have been as clear to other people as they were inside my head, but I think it still worked. Next time I do something similar I might try giving a trial run to someone, and getting some feedback before the live version.
I forgot to take my ADHD meds yesterday, which was foolish of me, and consequently had a day of being rather stupid and useless. It was a bit frustrating, but in some ways it's good to have the reminder of just how much difference they make to my life, and how astonishing it is that I managed to achieve as much as I did before I got my diagnosis (although it's not a completely fair comparison, as there's an aspect of withdrawal making it worse than just standard unmedicated me.)
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