Ups and downs

[wildeabandon]

I'm struggling a bit at the moment in a slightly frustrating way. My workload has come back down to a more reasonable level, but there's still quite a lot on my plate, and my holiday was not as refreshing as I'd hoped it would be, and I'm not really managing even normal levels of productivity. I also seem to be back in the space where even though I'm spending quite a lot of time not being productive, I often can't even seem to motivate myself to do things that I find fun in that time, which makes me feel worse about not being productive.

I don't think it's anything close to the level that would constitute even a mild a depressive episode. I am still enjoying things when I manage to get the activation energy together to do them, my self-esteem is absolutely fine, and I am optimistic and hopeful about the medium and long term future. I'll finish work for the Christmas break in a couple of weeks, and things will get better then, so I just need to keep my head above water until then.

Here are some good things:
- I'm already feeling a bit more confident on the bike
- We recently got our piano fixed, and I've been enjoying playing it again
- I had a lovely afternoon with the the_alchemist and themidnightgirl last weekend, and Florizel continues to be utterly delightful.
- I've got a couple of therapy sessions booked in for the next couple of weeks, which I expect to be pretty helpful
- This new eyeliner!

- My sister's new flat purchase finally completed after many months of frustrating delays, and after what's been a pretty tough year for her she's clearly a lot happier.
- On Friday I'm having dinner with an old friend whom I've not seen since the Before Times

Tell me some good things going on in your lives?

Comments

[ludy]

Am impressed at how well that eye-liner shows up through glasses! And it’s an awesome colour.

Sorry that you are having not-great-ness. It sounds (reads) like you are doing sensible things and keeping a good eye on your mental health (and yeah, sometimes feeling meh! is much more about outside world stuff than brain chemistry).
Yay! for the good things.

Good stuff for me: I’m improving post-surgery. I enjoyed starting my Inkvent calendar today - the first ink has the splendidly goth name of “seize the night” and is a rich purpley brown. And I’m making (sort of vaguely-blini-style) pancakes this evening to use up the excess bread-pet (sourdough starter) that’s accumulated while I’ve been convalescing - the mix is currently bubbling and growing satisfactorily while I work out what to have them with…

[wildeabandon]

Sourdough pancakes are the best :) I like them with rhubarb compote.

[sfred]

<3

Tomorrow my sister-in-law and her partner are coming to visit, just for the evening. I really like their company.

The good stuff...

[hairyears]

1. I'm going from strength to strength with the Strength Training: not only stronger - a reversal of the age-related decline in muscle mass - but stronger than I have ever been. The next step is... Looking Less Weedy.
2. Next up, I've got back in to regular solo practice with the Bokken and Jo, daily meditation, and the Ki Exercises for Health.
3. Work have renewed my contract until the end of August 2022.
4. And finally... I'm sleeping better. I know of absolutely no reason why this is so, but I've had two mornings this week, where I've actually woken up and felt awake.